Tanning

     So to all you tanners. I went for my first time. I got in there for 8 minutes cause thats what miss Kaylee Miller told me to do. But it was a 12 minute bed instead of a normal 20 minute one, my chest is extra crispy lol. But whatever a girl on our floor has special stuff that is making my burn slowly dissapear without peeling. I'll be going again tuesday. I think I'm hooked. Also I'm thinking about getting a tattoo on the top of my foot that will say "Faith is the foundation of this temple" What do you guys think? I miss yall so much but I got physics and bible study homework so adios. Call me if yall wanna get a hold of me. I wanna talk i just always seem to be running around. Alright love yall and God bless

-kj

I AM SO ABSOLUTELY BORED UP HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phillip leave me alone!!!!!!!!!

Well hmmmmm. So I'm still having dreams. And this time Dee just let me know hes really sorry for everything that happened, that if he were here right now he'd be with me cause I'm the one he really ever loved. So that heals my heart a lot.

I'm so happy that Shae's my new mentor. She understands so much that I go through. We both know what its like to be a single mom and lose ppl we love so yea its gonna help me a lot.

Larry I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy that you got saved. God is so amazing. You should def visit my church again.

Jennifer I really want to be close to you again too. Pretty much all my friends but Kaitlyn abandoned me when they found out I had a kid. So it'd be pretty cool if we would could be friends again. plus you know I AM always just one phone call away, 816-803-6184.

Well tomorrow is Garage sale today. Saturday is church work day. Sunday is church. Next weekend I'm supposed to hang with Shae. Can't wait till then. Welp talking to CuShun so i gotta go.

-kj

So Dee has been visiting me a lot in my dreams. I think its really cool that even though he is gone, he still manages to let me know he still loves me and cares about me. And that he has faith in me to raise our daughter. I told Tonya about the dreams and she said hes been coming in her dreams too. Just letting her know that he is OKAY and that he is happy and that he loves her with all his heart even though he is gone. I should have known he would have never trully left either of us. Everytime I get it in my head that I'm jsut sick of living I end up having a dream with him showing me Savannah. And how he wishes he would have had the chance to help raise her but it wasnt meant to be. And how lucky I should feel for getting to love her and see her everyday.

But I had a dream last night. And its got me really worked up. I need to talk to CuShun about it cause I know he'll tell me the truth to my questions. Even though I already know the answer he'll give me and I know how bad it is going to hurt, I still have to hear it.

 I'm going to make a new dog tag tomorrow. Its gonna have a pic of me and Dee at courtwarming on the front and will have the dates 7/25/04-12/23/06 the day we started going out and the day he officially left me for good. and one the back its gonna say. Love is the greatest of all.

Well Valerie, I hope our convo helped you. I really know what you're going through and how you feel. I've been exactly where you are. And trust me if you don't change, you'll end up where I am and you DON't want that. But we'll talk more soon. Love ya girl.

-kj